Sunday, August 28, 2005
Haiz.. Today is a sad day i dono y... Maybe due to hanging out with eliza yesterday night and drinking with ruben and marie, till the wee hours off the morning. Eliza was like pouring out her woes... into ruben. I was like cannot tahan la... all my sad thoughts keep coming to me.. felt damn fucked up... Finally went to the beach, there i walked along the shore alone for quite e while... A part of me is missing. Her! LUM QUN YU!!!
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This is her Ain't she swt! Haiz!
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Yes, her i realli do... cause u now why i'm kinda like tearing while typing this blog entry here. I seriously love her alot sniff. As i walked along the shore yesterday night, how i wished that she would be there to be with me, but NO! she was not, so wat else but too look at her photo of me and her in my hp... The feeling sucks la k... I haven got this same feeling with the other girls that i claimed to have liked, In recent times... My mood sudden changed after that, was thinking of her whole heartedly haiz, wondering whether she was awake. Cause msged her earlier on but she didn't reply. Msged her today, she didn't reply either... haiz...
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Went to catch the show drink drank drunk today... Super funni show but the ending was kinda touching and i teared... It reminded me of her again, i'm so depressed now la arghz... I miss her... i really do. My birthday's coming, will it be a lonely 1 again ? Shall i pop the question and don't hold back anymore ? Everytime i see her i'm happy, all the suffering and pain fades away, but she's not mine.... And may not be ever haiz.... i feel like drinking anywan wanna accompany me !!!
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Btw juz came back from japan, no wan sent me off or picked me up, i am so lonely, i am so lonely. The weather there was fuck, rained like every single day. Rode drenched to the skin on comeptition day itself... It was freezing cold whole body so numb and stiff, Attained 19th place for that round... Thats all folks chaoz~~ I miss her badly!!!
Brandon was ThIs Is ShItZ!
at 12:21 PM
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