Tuesday, December 09, 2014
It's been a very long while since i posted in here. But it seems its better to write it out then to tell it too someone. why did i even let it happen. why did i even open the emptyness inside. Why did i even let you feel it up... Why am i even writing this in the first place. When in the first place it started out with nothing. i cant eat proper;y i cant sleep. i thnk about you all the time. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck totally going insane. Why chantel why did i even let myself fall for you when it should have been left as friends. I know i screwed it up i really did, this obession of love. You told me i'm a nice guy and that i should leave jesslin and i did, you told me you had enough of meeting other guys. you told me to go after someone else more worth while and i did. i gave my all to you, and you judged me cause of all those previous other girls. If i had liked u then do u think i would even have even let all those happen ? I really gave my all, because u let me feel how to love again. If u had felt something u should have said it. I was always ard u. telling it in my face wouldnt have let it end up like this.
Chances are i'm earning a place on you dont reply or P ban list. cause i'm messing it up real bad..
cause of the pain. i miss u so much cause we are in this state.. argh.. guess theres no hope cause as you mentioned before. If a girl doesn't wanna reply you, she has no interest in you so stop being irritating and let it go. So here i am letting it go...
Brandon was ThIs Is ShItZ!
at 2:39 PM
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